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Wednesday, October 22, 2008

SPM Form 4 and Form 5 books for sale after November 27th 2008~
Anyone, anybody, whoever who's interested to buy my SPM books for half price or quarter price(selected books), feel free to contact me. No phone numbers will be shown here for those of you who don't have my number.>Please email or IM me in messenger.
powerpuff_carol@hotmail.comFor those of you who has it, call or sms me yea =)I'll reply you the list of books or email to you as soon as i get your message.Since I'm not free to type the list now, just contact me. Well, the reason why I wanna sell all my books..okay..maybe not all la.. is because....I wanna empty out my bookshelves. Plus, I need more money for college. LOLZ..alasan..However, I can only start selling my books after the 27th of November 2008 aka the last day of spm. WHEE~ Can't wait for that mind-roaring-freedomised day...Hiatus failed again. I won't stick to my hibernation process aldy..will blog

Blogged @ 10/22/2008
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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

-Tuesday night, 10.49pm, 30th September 2008-I shall declare this very moment a hiatus to my bloggie.And i mean it.Gonna get serious by now.Wish me luck for spm =)Bye for now~

Blogged @ 9/30/2008
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Thursday, September 25, 2008

What was anticipated became mere dreams. I was actually shortlisted for the Taylor's interview. Going for it this Saturday. And the worst thing is, I'm lucky number 1 to be interviewed. Gosh!
Enough said. Tomorrow's the last day for trials. I did shitty-ly for almost every subject. Anyway, I've expected to get eye-popping results, so yea.
Nothing much to say, I need a break. And hell yeah, I'm undergoing 'puasa' at the same time.
*Forcing myself to smile* I hate myself for being sarcastic.

Blogged @ 9/25/2008
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I'm depressed. I felt a sharp needle poking every fine vein and blood vessel in my fragile heart when they asked me whether I receive the important call from Taylors regarding the Principal's Award 2009 Scholarship. I tried to forget about it but it keeps spinning 360 degrees continuously in my head. Damn sad man....Well, actually it's already predicted that I WON'T be able to make it to the interview. Based on my not-so-excellent results covered with blemishes in the disguise of horrible C's and D's. And not to forget, E's for science subjects. To think about it, who on earth will accept my sucky, low class, recycled entry? I think even the stray dogs will pee on the stack of photostated certs and important documents. EWW...for sure the smell would be darn stinky! Ohkay~ I shouldn't think beyond imagination. What's gone is gone. And this is what's left of me. Got inspired by this song sang by Nick Lachey~
I feel like a pig aka babi wandering around sniffing books in my cosy room. LOL. Ignore me. I just wanna have the sense of metaphor on whatever I'm doing now. Hmmmmm...since I didn't manage to secure the babi scholarship, plus I didn't get chosen for National Service, where will I be heading to after SPM? Work to earn more money for college? Darn..maybe I should stop thinking of college and say hello to Form 6! *sinister laugh* =.= Arghhhhh....if I were to apply other scholarships from other well-known colleges, I might have to use my trials results, which will be oh-so-darn-shitty! How would you feel if someone unknown sitting in the same class or attending the same tuition keep glancing at you or steal a look at you whenever you're not looking at him? And with that 2 minute stare, it freaks me out! Is that tuition a nest for guys to look for girls instead of gaining extra knowledge? I don't know their names, neither do I want to know who they really are. I do recognize their hamsap-not-so-good-looking faces..*ohkay,maybe not hamsap but I just can't stand it when guys look at me with that hamsap-ish kind of look* Eeyer.............................


When will I declare an official hiatus to my bloggie?


I'll blog when I feel like jotting down my rants. So,yea....I doubt my next post will be on October..maybe earlier or later than that.

Blogged @ 9/17/2008
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Thursday, September 11, 2008

watz up people?!! I'm back with a brand new look *exhausted look*

I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE! BUT I'LL NEVER GIVE UP!
Yea Yea..keep bragging to yourself Carol Tan Khai Jou. More subjects to come~ argh..i screwed up Sejarah 2. Whatever that I've read slipped off my mind. Not to say I didn't read, I really read every single page. I prepared for Sejarah long time ago..maybe this is the cause of my memory loss. Sejarah 1 was pretty easy..easy peesy. haha. just joking.
Will be onlining less and less. Won't update my blog till I've the mood to do so.
Can't wait to change my hairstyle..cause I had enough with my frizzy and dry hair. Not gonna straighten it anymore. hehe.

Don't feel like studying anymore. But of course I won't stop studying for spm la...
Feel like a dumbass and also a nerd at the same time. Can't wait for my birthday to arrive! too bad lil miss annoying + cute + sexy + pretty caryn wont be here to celebrate with me. Wat a waste..tsk tsk
LOL

Blogged @ 9/11/2008
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Sunday, September 7, 2008

You were born in Malaysia, but sadly I don't know the exact location.
You were born on the 7th of September 1989, but sadly I don't know the exact time.
You were named Yap________, but sadly I don't know what the true meaning of your name is.
You were given a birth certificate, but sadly I don't know your birth certificate number.
You were raised up by your wonderful yet caring parents, but sadly I don't know their
respective names.
You used to live in Sri Anggerik 1 Apartment, but sadly I don't know you yet!
You are now a permanent resident in Vista Lavender Apartments, but sadly I don't know ypur home address.
You have your very own Malaysian Identity Card, but sadly I don't know your IC number.
You have umpteen pictures and photos of yourself with your family, but sadly I don't even have a picture of you and me together!
You used to study in Bistari class from form 1 till form 5 in the same school, but sadly I don't know anything about you.
You came back to continue your Pre-U studies in form 6 in the same school, but still I don't know you yet.
But I know you wouldn't mind.
Because today is your very special day. And its celebrated only once in a year.
Although I'm not here by your side to celebrate your birthday with you, but I hope that the little gift that I gave to you and the simple heart-warming birthday message that I sent to you will make u smile with patronization.
Although time is separating us from meeting each other, I still have you in my mind and heart, no matter how busy I am and wherever I go.
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HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DEAR!~
Love, like a river, will cut a new path whenever it meets an obstacle.- Crystal Middlemas -

Blogged @ 9/07/2008
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Romance StoryA Diary From A Guy
January 2*
Do you still remember the first time we met? It was the first day in school. I was hurriedly entering the school gate when I bumped into you as you stepped out of a luxurious Volvo. The books you were holding fell all over the ground. I quickly picked up the books and returned them to you along with words of apology, but all you showed me was your intimidating look. My first impression of you was thatyou were a wilful girl born with a golden sthingy in the mouth. I had rejected you completely and had hoped not to meet you again, but surprisingly you turned out to be my classmate.
*March 22*
I started to know more about you as days passed and my opinion of you changed for the better on each passing day. I realised that you were from a wealthy family but definitely not a wilful girl. You were nice and friendly. You got angry that day we first met because I had left a footprint marking on the poetry collection you loved dearly. We met often during lunch break and I found something in you that was different from the rest of the girls - your passion for Chinese poetry. Often you would mumble something to yourself. Initially, I thought that you were humming a pop song butlater I realised that you had been reciting Chinese poems from great poets. You were so knowledgeable that you knew every poet and which poems they composed. I was very impressed indeed.
*April 5*
I met you again in the study area. That day you were reading the Chinese classics "Romance of the 3 kingdom". Your ability to appreciate Chinese classics left me with admiration. You were indeed unique in many ways.
*May 5*
From then on, we would often meet in the study area to discuss about the good and bad things of the character in these Chinese classics. Do you still remember the time when we a! lmost br oke off because we could not agree on whether Jia BaoYu hurt Lin Dai Yu? Our argument was so fierce that we never talked for that week. But when Friday came, we still met in the study area and laughed over the incident. After which, another argument started.
*Aug 7*
I could not deny it. It was a feeling I could not identify accurately. Wenever you laughed over a joke with other guys, that emotion filled my senses. It took me a while before identified it. I was in love; the feeling was jealousy. I felt the need to express it. But, I was afraid...that you would dismiss my feeling, that you and I would be stuck in an embarrassing situation, that our long nurtured friendship would crumble...therefore, I kept quiet.
*Oct 1*
The news came as a shock to me. I was so worried when I learnt that you had fainted in the canteen. I was struggling to keep my worried face in control as I looked at the ambulance that carried you away.
*Oct 2*
It was drizzling that day. Our form teacher sadly announced that you had got cancer. As she finished her last sentence, outside the classroom, it seemed to me that the drizzle had turned into a downpour. I could only hear the sound of the rain, nothing more. I rushed to NUH ICU to see you immediately after lesson. Your face was whitish in colour, showing no trace of red. I learnt that you had just undergone an operation. The life-support system was just beside you with tubes piercing mercilessly into your left wrist. "I am all right, it is just a serious case of anemia. Believe me, my parents told me that". you said convincingly. I knew fully well what you were thinking, you did not want me to be worried. "Are you comforting yourself or comforting the fears and hopelessness that was written all over my face?", I thought to myself. I was not strong enough to disagree with you and I nodded my head with a forced smile. You responded with a smile too-with gre! at effor t.
*Oct 5*
It was a ordinary day but to me, it was an important day. I felt an impulse to express my love. I walked over to the side of your bed, holding your hand. I told you the story of how an ordinary guy fell in love with a girl who likes poetry and Chinese classics. As I told my story, my eyes started to flood with water, and uncontrollably my voice started to choke, and finally I broke into tear But you held my head against your body and with watery eyes, said: "I understand such a love, so did the girl." I returned my eyes to her and at that moment, her tears dropped, and for the first time, I saw some redness on her lips.
*Oct 26*
It was the last day of examination and I rushed to NUH to continue my story. When I reached there, I only saw the nurse arranging the bed you once slept on. When I asked about you, the nurse told me expressionlessly that you had passed away. It was a bolt from the blue for me. I stood motionless for a long time. I hated myself for spending the last few days preparing for the last examination paper. I hated myself for not staying longer the last time I visited you. I hated myself so much...but you were gone...... I can't remember how I got home that day. When I woke up, I was already in my room. The pillow I slept on was wet. The next day, I went for the funeral. I heard from your father that on the day you passed away, you were still reading the Poetry collection I gave you as a gift for your birthday. Standing in front of Your portrait, I had no tears, they were used up on the day of your death. All I knew was sadness, my heart was like shattered into pieces and died.
*Jan 2*
A new girl has taken over your seat. She does not like poetry, but she likes to hum pop songs. When I asked her if she knows Jia Bao Yu, she replied: "What talking you." Yes, you were gone. But to me, the seat is still unoccupied, and maybe no one will ever occupy it......
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This is a true story that happened 10 years ago!!!! Now then Can fully understand what the author means by "A PERSON WILL KNOW WHAT IS PAIN ONLY WHEN HE HAS BEEN THROUGH IT...." To cut the whole story short...jus wanna tell u pple that.....
IF U TRULY LOVE THAT SOMEONE... JUS GO RIGHT UP TO HIM OR HER OR GIVE A PHONE CALL RIGHT NOW TO SAY "I lUV U " AND EXPRESS YOUR FEELINGS FOR THAT PERSON B4 IT'S TOO LATE!!!!!

A Guy would rather shed blood than shed tears but that's because he has yet experience sadness. The moral of the story is to treasure your love ones coz they might not be always around. Share this story to those you cherish most and let them feel their "presence" are important as they are part of our lives too!!

Blogged @ 8/27/2008
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